Monday After the Weekend

Not much is going on .... Summer is Here... You sweat as you lock your front door, you make it to your vehicle and the back of your shirt is drenched....

So, goes the humidity and heat here in the Deep Deep South

Its Monday after the weekend.

Tainted..... Is there Any Other Way??

This is about Life... about making decisions that Society holds to be Tainted.....

I won't go into the whole back story... read the blog.... gain some insight ...

In the normal world of adulthood, you graduate at some level, attain job/career .... retirement.. etc..
During that journey, Society imposes behavior according  your environment .. Society has penalties for wrongful  behavior...  on personal usage ... on personal decisions ...that affect only you in your home.

After the Glorious Years, I made a personal decision not to live by Society's  mandates, but to explore the Outer Rim of Life.... to go where none of my brethren would have gone... to seek the human element and enter their world, which is dysfunctional at all levels, to see for my self ..how they live, how they cope, how they see Life....

They, these humans, said.... "if you come and open our gate..... enter into our kingdom, you might not get back to Your side of the Tracks.... but come on... lets do it"   Then They said.. "bring ya self on over here mister man".

I went... I grabbed the handle of That Gate... I swung it Wide... and I stepped into Their Kingdom.....

Living Their World.... is not easy.... they pry upon one another.. as vultures eat their own dead..

Living in Their World.. there is some connective kinship, not by blood, but by Life... Hard Earned.

They let me Taste the FruiT ... of Flesh and Substances... They Laugh at my sense of caring.. of holding on to friendships....

Their World is a constant movement..  of short hirings, firings, of lost elements...

In Their World.... there is also some attachment to kindness.. of being a good heart... of sharing..

They came to me.. and said ..... "Leave ... get your fucking ass back across those tracks." " You have stayed long enough.... Help us out when we are in trouble  Big Man.... " You belong with Your Kind, Your People.... '" and then they Said.......



"You Are .NoT US....  You can come again.. Maybe .. Later.... this train ride is Over for the time being".

They said.... "You have been Tainted by Us.... You Chose Us... and The Taint..smells"


They said. We are glad you came.. we are glad you have been Tainted . Like Us.. Go Leave Now".

I left... and had the Tainted Smell that followed me home..

Did I make an error... Hell No... I would have Never Known what was on the Other Side of the Tracks.........................................

Humans need the Experience of Life to fully gain the knowledge, feeling, and emotions.. !!!!

I am Tainted... I will be for Life...  I opened the Gate..... Will You Open the Gate?????? 

Yep Yep... Rambling As the Summer Rolls On..........

Tis Tis......

The story is that We can't get it together... We ... the State of Louisiana's Population ...  I sit here looking out my window of the home office.. I see multiple  groups walking the streets... No Masks

It doesn't matter who they are... its across the spectrum of the Population. . No Mask...

You go into an office I am told, some one is crackin' a joke.. on the wearing of mask...

Seriously People....

The Governor said yesterday.... No Phase 3.. No opening up any further than you are Now......

I have a conversation by text with The Man...  he said keep on what you are doing, he knows its driving me crazy... but hey yep ... but its better than chancing Covid...

I woke up and opened the office at 702am this morning... shot off an email at 703am..  

On to another topic.... that is the socialization of what is happening with old gay men like myself.. who don't think we are Old Gay Men.. OGM...... there is a mind set not with the OGM, but with the younger generation, those Millennials .. I have two of them who visit a few houses down... they visit the Priest of St. Timothy's who lives a few houses down... he has a pool...

When they pull up to the curb, the Chief Lesbian and I are on the porch, Hi There... they both look in our direction, raise their lil mop heads... scurry off, twisting their lil tight butts.... never a hi, hello, kiss my ass. The Chief Lesbian now has assumed that they are rude, crude, and their parents did not teach them any manners...... so She Whistles at them ... and I give a big Smile.. . ...  its a lil bit silly.... but hey OGM have to have their fun... in some way... along with the Chief Lesbian on a sultry summer afternoon in the deep, Deep South ... while we are still in Phase 2.

Monday....

Its Monday... long Monday.... its rainin'.......

I should be cooking Red Beans with Sausage.. over rice..... doing laundry... like most of Louisiana is suppose to do on a Monday...

I am here at the office on the Brick Street... lookin' out my front windows.......

Soon, the Good Doctor, next week will have to make a decision as to whether I go back to the real office at the Courthouse.....   I suspect she will ok it... since the La Supreme Court is going back in session on July 1st.. (they have been out for Covid)....we will all be back to work.....  but (and there is always a but), one will have to see since the Covid is on the rise in the Lil' City by the Red and the Parish (we have parishes, y'all got counties)...... too many no masks at Wally World..... the Governor even spoke about it in his address last week . the Rise that is in Region 6, meaning Us.  .... I haven't went out to grocery shop since March 16th, the Chief Lesbian has been doing that... I am sort of hesitant to go to the grocery store.

All this being by yourself is getting a lil bit comfortable for me.... even tho I long for a lil' human contact... I certainly don't want Covid.. ... the routine around the house here is ok..

Happy Father's Day

Happy Father's Day to all those Daddies out there that take care of, give emotional stability to, that help in ways not thought of, to the Lads and Gals.... !!!

Time is ticking Away

Another Old Buddy......

On Wednesday, I received notice that another old buddy, had passed from this earth, to his greater reward..

We cooked together at St. James, was on the Vestry together, also, he was the Counsel to the Mayor, when I was Chief of Staff.. .. He was a Republican, I was the Yellow Dog Democrat...

We both like the fruit of the vine, spot of sour mash, and a good steak...

He had practice law for almost 50 years...

It was an accident that sent him on his way, he was at the lake, something happened not sure, he fell into the lake, that was it.. He Passed...

He was a good soul, he stood for his beliefs, he held true to his self...

Another Old Buddy...

Time is passing by...... its this part of Life... that one must count as precious... reach out.. say hello... to your old friends that you haven't seen in a good while....

And for a Burger King Lunch.... You Have...... ???

Over the past two weeks, I have been flirting a lil bit with Gay Social Media....  I was thinking The Colorado Man got on it .. Then decided Nope. !!!... and then .. there have been short burst of mentions in other blogs from blog writers in the Gay Community.. 

Boredom.... Yes ...Boredom in the Home Office... out of a routine that has a span of 46 years and continuing.... Boredom brings Old Fools out.... makes them chanced walking the Gang Plank.. 

Walk that Plank You Old Fool...... Walk it so those young spire Sailors say .. when they are all dripping with the heat of the day, spray of salt water busting a wave.....

I now digress to the current event.... 

I had up until today a Grindr and Scruff Profiles .. briefly.... I deleted them today... this Old Fool did...

Now.. Who is this Man that is the subject of Lunch.... 

He came out of the area, 18 miles from the Lil City by the Red, that means he lives in the country, south of town.. out in the Piney Woods, where the Pole Pines Grow.. Out by Ten Mile, .. where the Red Bones Live... out in No Man's Land ...... the Sabine River Valley/Swamps that separate Louisiana from Texas.

He came to see his doctor today.... he has the Gift like I have.. he is many years my junior.. but (and there is always a but) he has voted in the last three Presidential Elections....  We communicate by the learned ways of the Millennials..... his way not mine....   

After the medical appointment he came and he  stopped  by the house, first time actually meeting, its the Covid era ..

he had a mask on... he socially distances ... small chit chat... put your mask on . I put mine on... we ride to a sandwich place, place the order and come back to the house..... had  Lunch....

By this time I was needing to go back into the home office, his questions seemed a lil bit provocative . probing for his own benefit.. . ... 

He got up from the table with a shadow standing at Attention... and said... Would you like to...

In a split second... Warden Thompson, rose from his chair..... "Sir... I will not be brought for the price of a Burger King Lunch"

"The Door Sir..... "

Quiet !!

Yesterday the Chief Lesbian and her folks stopped by to Social Distance.  They all spend about an hour here..... then got an invitation for something better, just in the pool with other Lesbians......

So, they all jumped off the porch and headed over somewhere to a concrete pond, that I am sure would be full of Fish.

As the Evening wore on...... D Man dropped by, old friend,  he was looking for someone to have supper with, so told him to go stop by the local Italian Eatery a few blocks over pick us up some lamb chops...

But (and there is always a but) he didn't stay long either... all this happened before 630pm.....

So, with a bottle of red wine... I retired to the Back Porch and Played the Pointer Sisters in Solitude with Myself.. Me... Alone....

I got up this morning and did an Eight Mile Ride on the Mtn Bike... before 9am...evidently my social circle is going smaller... decreasing... in the BP (Before Pandemic) I would have had at least two other cyclist riding with me... it helps u push yourself.. no one wants to be the last rider ;egging behind the pack... when you solo, you are always behind.

Here is the Back Porch.. Last Night.......... actually it was The Bottle of Red, Pointer Sisters on Sonos, and Me.....

Friday......

It's Friday.....

I opened the Home Office  up early.. the typical time is 830am.... my log says 755am today....

Cause... Its Friday...

Not much special going on ... The Lesbian (not the Chief Lesbian) that I am very very close to, was at the Boat dealer yesterday, having repairs made to her boat.. We were suppose to go fishing down at Big Lake, below Lake Charles, its a brackish water lake..... flows in from the Gulf from the South and the Sabine River to the North....

Ain't happening, she was inspecting the work on the boat.. decided to jump down, lost her balance and landed on her wrist.. broke it... they are having to put a plate in the wrist this coming Wednesday. But in true Lesbian Demeanor .... she is off to see her Girlfriend who lives in Texas, today... tough gal..

So goes life in the Lil City by the Red.. ....

Its Friday.. and the weekend is here... its a no mtn biking day... tomorrow is tho.. and I need to decide what to cook for Saturday Night Supper.... I have a beef tenderloin in the freezer that needs to be smoked and grilled. ... I think I am going to get "The Egg" ready to use and soak some cherry wood.. ..... Cook it mid afternoon tomorrow... I have some fresh corn... so I might cream that.. and have a nice salad.... all on the Back Porch.... with the Swamp Cooler ..

I have to make my order at Hokus Pokus... its the local liquor store.. ... I'm out of scotch, ... and the house wine..   never know who may stop in during the weekend.........

Before that... I Must vacuum the house and mop some floors... the floors are quarter sawn long leaf pine .. Murphy's Mop Oil does make them shine...

I am been touching up my interior walls paint lately...  here and there.. I use Benjamin Moore Historical Color Number 3 on the walls and ceilings here at the house... its a really neutral color and shows off the art very well...  I have added to my collection another Hunt Slonem ...  He has two homes in Louisiana now, I guess that makes him semi local...

Again........It's Friday..... here in the Deep Deep South, in the Lil' City by the Red, Heart of the Garden District.....

Front Porch to the Back Porch

Yesterday the Chief Lesbian came over, she went grocery shopping for me.... as has the custom been since March 16th......  She is really a blessing so I wouldn't have to go to the grocery store and I could at lest social distance and somewhat self isolate ... 

Also, the Best Neighbor, Amy, came over .. along with Mr. VM.... he is a good friend from the neighborhood.. there was enough room on the Front Porch to accommodate all in the 10 foot social distance requirement.. that the neighborhood has.... As the heat of the late late afternoon wore on.. I offered to cook supper, but retire to the Back Porch to have some privacy and it be cooler... 

I filled up the Swamp Cooler .... turned the ceiling fans on.... and poof we enjoyed the Back Porch which is screened in and gives privacy away from the Brick Street ... but you can't wave at folks going by.... which is what is special about the front porch... 

All who was gathered, three of them, said they prefer the Back Porch... due to the coolness and privacy... 

Good Wednesday...

Hi....... !!!!

I am writing from the home office .... just after the Staff Meeting.. it was all Live.. everyone in the room except me... I was by Zoom.......

Folks had their mask on.... I was thinking Yes.. maybe I should have tried to go...But (and there is always a but)



When the biscuits and jelly came into the Room .... The Masks came  off......

Good Decision on my part to Work from Home.... at lest for the present and going time.....

I sat down and checking the emails.. etc.. tuned in to Jimmy's blog... and found ....

Lucie Horsch....... which I am now listening to on Sonos.. thru the Polk Tower Speakers... a wonderful clarity of sound.. from an accomplished musician ....

Home for Now..... Says the Good Doctor

Today, I got a text on my phone announcing a Staff meeting for tomorrow at work. 

I thought...... hmmmmm ...... and hmmmmmmmmm

So, I made a call to the Good Doctor, one at the end of the last entry of the blog posting yesterday...

After a conversation, it was agreed that I should stay home until an evaluation take place for re-entering the work place on June 30th

The Good Doctor told me that the numbers were rising at the local hospital for Covid.. that in the best estimation, I should wait and see if they begin to fall on a timely basis... So we are going to carefully watch the numbers of Covid cases in the local hospitals..  

If the rise begins to fall... and it does as the Good Doctor believes... I can return to work July 1st.... 

By the way I ask to be included in the staff meeting by FaceTime or Zoom

Lets hope so... I will continue to work from home... for now...

Wait and See....

Well, I'm at a decision point this week....

To return to work or stay home and see what transpires ..  . it's political season.. everything from my view point is on the table...

Here are some of my thoughts swirling around in the grey matter that is attached to my body.....

Here is me:


Leadership Role (Position in Office Hierarchy)
36 months to retirement (2nd)
Single Office (I don't share an office, its big 14x16) Great View For what ever that is worth
Covered/Guarded Parking Space
Can set early office hours as I wish.. if I go back to work in the Office
I have KN95 Mask, nice stockpile

Now here is what I face:


You must wear a mask to get into the Courthouse, temp checked etc etc.
To be received into the office quadrant you must go through two interlocks into Our Space
I see from time to time a cadre of politicians, officers, judges, etc.. some have good skills of social distancing, others Nope.... and some have No Mask
I will always wear my Mask if someone is in my Office with me.... or if I am called into another's office which is not rare but not frequent. Note.. I handle my own business.

My Good Doctors have said this......... 

We can offer good Medical Advice.

 Practice Hand Washing/Use Sanitizers
Wear mask in your office if u are not alone
Never go out into the Public Areas without a Mask and/or Plan i.e. Wash your hands on return before entering back into your office

And Then Two of them Added This......

You are Healthy. You are HIV+ But (and there is always a but) . You are Not Immuno Suppressed, Yes you have controled hypertension with meds just like your HIV, Yes you have AFib you have meds just like your HIV and you have never had any concerns with your AFib

You ride that bike like a 52 year old.. LOL

So, you should weigh your risk against your personal needs and make your own decision.. WE as your physicians will support You in that decision..

And One of the Good Doctors began to Think about the Whole Situation and Said.. Let's TeleMed in a week


For Me.................


The Time Clock is ticking... I should, could, need to make a few  some decisions should I....

Chuck it Up... Retire .. say Bye Bye
Do what the Good Doctors say and hopefully my Karma is Good... Back to Work

What I am thinking is that the Third Doctor is pondering since that Doctor is a member of our LGBT Community.. ...

I am waiting On That Doctor... to render the Soundest Advice.  

Blah Blah.... Not Even a Tropical Sniffle

This was the most anticlimactic tropical depression I have ever been through...

It spilt the middle of the state into... left us dry as a bone... Hey.. there is no complaints .. The Power is on... The Flowers in the beds are standing up, The skies are blue and partly cloudy .....

Cristobal ... passed us with not even a puff ...

On to another work week at home........but I think this might be coming to an end also.. there is a push in state and local govts to have the employees come back to work.. show our Public we are spending their tax dollars by having our employees back in the offices.....

My perspective is that we haven't seen sickness just yet.. wait till some one get the Covid at the office .. ..... then all hell will break loose...

But for this week.... I am here at the house on my 11th week of working from home...

Can't Find a Hurricane Party in the Whole City......

What is the world coming to..... Please..... Even after the Big K... if there was a slight tropical depression in the Gulf... You Could find some one on their front porch.... drinkin' and cookin'.......

Declaring a Hurricane Party....

This World is too tame... to Socially Correct....... Please....

So, I guess I will have to play Adele.... Fix me a Drink..... and Cook a Shrimp Stew.....

Get out on the Front Porch... and Yell.............

Hurricane Party.....


Oh Yes... and We will abide by the Rules... Socially Distance Polite Manners...

Bring your own Old Fashion Glass.. I got the Whisky

Friday .... A Trip and Another Matter

Today, I went UpRiver, to the Big Big City... I had to go see the dermatologist, for my routine six month visit.

I hadn't been since the OutBreak....  haven't actually left town since late December. I don't get out much anyway.. Having a 4x4 truck and the Beast you would think I would be a road hog..

The truck is almost 6 years old and has 39K miles on it... the beast is nearing four years on and has 17 K on it... most of the miles with both of them has been to San Antonio to see the other doctor.. its a 1000 mile round trip .I go two to three times a year depending on the schedule....

The trip this morning was 127 miles one way... Dr. Bryan frozen nine places on my face and neck...

I went up there, came right back, I did stop in Natchitoches (aka Nat Ka Trash) to have a Wendys burger.. thru the drive thru.. I was masked and gloved with sunglasses..... its appropriate now to wear that... a year ago you would have been accused of holding the place up for a robbery...

The Question is when to go back to work.... it's a lingering thought ... Good Dr. Bryan says its all in the Mask and Washing the hands.. No Touching. No Southern Hugging.... etc etc etc...

The experience at the Doctor's office, if any indication, certainly aired on the side of caution and I observed it first hand...  

The Good Doctor and I spoke of files, handling of files, etc.. they still have paper files... remember folks.. we are in Louisiana.... So... she approved of the new CDC guidelines on files, papers etc. and gave me some reassurance... 

Also on the Mask.... I feel a lil bit more comfortable if I am to be in a semi secured office, but (and there is always a but), every one should have a mask, wear it in the public areas of the office, wash or sanitize your hands as much as needed or possible... if you have an office as a single user.. u can take your mask off if you are alone and the office has been sanitized properly.... 

Another Matter:

Now.. I am going to tell You,  I took the M post down, due to facts surrounding the case..  my employment ... I shouldn't have commented or posted anything other than the conclusion of the   trial and the  verdict if any,  Not  during the investigation .. Period ....No More Statement on that subject.

So much for my outing UpRiver.. now I am back in the Lil City By the Red.... 

It's Porch time and a cigar and Johnny W.. Red. ..... and a lil Sweating in the 93 degree heat....

Monday ... ..... ....... Monday

Tis Monday ...  Its red beans and rice day in Louisiana..

I got up, opened the office before 830am, sent some emails, did a lil research, checked the jail roster, and the ordinary daily routines of working from home.

Then I checked out again.. I say again, Jimmy's blog... so I ordered me a Bear Pride Flag, a Leather Pride Flag .. just to alternate my flag choices .. it should be interesting since the main headquarters for the PD and the FD are a block from my lil home...  We are glad they settled in the neighborhood.. its off the governmental path for them .. about 8 blocks from City Hall.. its their own lil island in the Garden District..


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