The photo is of Val and I trekking on a Goat Path on the Lost Trail of Ghost Ranch near Abiuqiu NM. Val's partner Kirt is taking the photos and giggling behind me. For a Louisiana boy to be on the high trails of New Mexico was a sure sight.

But my mind is no longer near Abiquiu NM.... it back to the life here in Alexandria. ... and the reality of Life.

My time these days is not my own.

With the two positions, the two Divisions, I seem not to be able to get anything accomplished... from relaxing to working around the house.

From time to time, the C comes up in conversations also with folks. I notice every ache, pain, seemingly sore muscle on my body these days... I am attuned to noticing every lil detail of my body, checking for the rash here, the blood vein there.. I guess it is just that way.

I had a Dr visit in San Antonio two weeks ago, he said that he thought I was doing good. That the path of choice of how I was approaching the C would be exactly how he would approach it.. I have my doubts that what he told me was accurate.. just doubts..sometimes doubt creeps into my mind...when I think of the C.

I drove 918 miles yesterday all the way back to the lil city by the red river.

Wasn't that bad of a drive, just zone out, haul butt, and your here in 15 hours, negotiated one large metro area (Dallas MetroPlex) that got in the way, however very lil road construction, no popo, and drove reasonable about 5 miles over the speed limit.

Today I recover, the only thing annoying about the trip was that I never could get away from the office, never!!!!

Those blackberries, even when I turned them off, I would turn them on again, some message or voice mail would be there, knowing that I had some responsibility to make the effort to accomplish the task after hearing the message... at times it was just too too fuckin' much.

I did accomplish my end of the trip, got stayed there with the movers of lil sister's furniture until they started the final move into their truck, brought some good Texas and New Mexico wine, brought various goodies home such as olive oil, wheat crackers, those items only found in the more upperly mobile living areas of this country.

Now to the diet at hand....and its crawfish season, two messages left and one call last night, have crawfish outings tonight all over town.

I went to San Antonio TX yesterday, to see the cancer Doctor. My appointment was at 930 am today. We chatted bout my psa, what percentage of the last biopsy was the cancer, etc etc. I stayed at the lil sister's house there outside of SA. She navigated the traffic for me in SA this morning for me.

Today, after the appt, I left lil sister's house, and headed out to Santa Fe NM, tonight I am staying in Carlsbad NM. Its a half way point.

My task in SF is to be there at her other house to assure that the movers get everything. They come on Thursday. For the next day and a half my itinerary will be spent roaming around SF a lil bit, buying New Mexico wine, seeing old friends who reside there now, and hiking with them up in one of the canyons. The hike is on Wednesday.

Back to the Dr. We talked bout my weight, I am fat, I jumped on the scale and my eyes rolled back in my head. I didn't know I weighed that much, I thought I would come in at 10 pounds lighter, but I came in at 5 pounds over what I had weighed the last time. Its the winter roll on me.

The Dr said, 20 pounds lighter by Sept 22nd. That is when my next biopsy will be.

I promised.

Tis been a long time, since I have been here.

Its political time here in the lil city by the Red River.

Things will begin to heat up here very soon...its getting warm now.

I will remain in the AC to stay cool.

I am headed to Texas tomorrow to see the lil sister, but more important to see the good Dr. I have my semi annual check in with him.

He will poke and prod a lil bit, ask questions, and then I will ask questions.

A guy down the street, one of my neighbors, is seeing the same Dr I am seeing in San Antonio. His diagnosis is the same as mine. Be interesting to chat with him and see what is going on with him also.

I have opened the blog up again for viewing by everyone. See how that goes.