Every since I began my hiv regiment of Descovy and Tivicay ... my dreams are vivid... and I remember them....
But I digress for a moment to another topic........
My inner-friendship circle has taken a turn to the less, everyone that I know, seems to be consumed with either their private businesses or private lives, indulging in the affairs of an emotional connection... everyone.. except me.. Which is not bad, but living in the Lil City by the Red.. it does isolate one's self.. if you are not with someone or dating or having a significant other in your life.. just ain't happening for me... which is OK.... it really is... OK
I went to therapy today, she is such a good therapist.. .. we covered three topics.. and ended up with a good session and outcomes.... we discussed the above, so one of my objectives is to get out more, visit one bistro once a week in the Lil City by the Red.. sit at the bar and engage whomever .. see if I can just conversate .... that's all.
On a similar topic... I have been asked to consider becoming a member of the board of directors of our local museum... I was on the board many years ago.. and I have always been civic minded. so I am considering the matter...
Back to the real Topic.....
Back to my REM Sleep and the Dream...... somewhere in the early morning hours before 5am.. I was deep in the dream world... John P was with me in my bed... I tasted his kiss and we wrapped our selves in each others' arms, pressed our naked bodies together.. and dripping sweat...... John passed on almost five years ago, but this morning he was present with me... in the Deep Dream World.. and
I smelled his breath and tasted his kiss one more time.....
I was Not Alone.. in my Bed.... John P.... The Spirit ...was here this morning before the sun rose to meet the Red River.
Wednesday, January 29, 2020
Tuesday, January 28, 2020
Its Tuesday
Today.... its has been raining here off and on for the last 18 days... rain then stop then rain... clear up then rain.. and the temps are from the 40s to low 50s.... its Not Porch Weather for sure...
I had a lil' bit of a fever last night... stuffy nose.. some chest congestion... its that time of year....
Not much else is going on.. ... If its hint of sunshine or even no rain but cloudy... I am hitting the city trails this weekend... I got the kayak trailer and loaded the kayaks up... for a paddle somewhere.... in the next few weeks...
Work is going well... but crime is steadily increasing within the community... lots of young guys and guns... mostly shooting each other... its sort of cyclical in form... I hope everyone can come together soon... I see the same repeat offenders in the drug cases... time and time again...
Otherwise, life is ok... here on the Brick Streets all is quiet...
I had a lil' bit of a fever last night... stuffy nose.. some chest congestion... its that time of year....
Not much else is going on.. ... If its hint of sunshine or even no rain but cloudy... I am hitting the city trails this weekend... I got the kayak trailer and loaded the kayaks up... for a paddle somewhere.... in the next few weeks...
Work is going well... but crime is steadily increasing within the community... lots of young guys and guns... mostly shooting each other... its sort of cyclical in form... I hope everyone can come together soon... I see the same repeat offenders in the drug cases... time and time again...
Otherwise, life is ok... here on the Brick Streets all is quiet...
Sunday, January 26, 2020
Takin it Easy on a Sunday Morning
Sunday is usually a day of inner reflection for me... coffee, with good cream, natural sugar, sometimes sausage from McNary, La, sometimes fruit if it is local, and then the Momma's biscuits.
The Boss picked up an opponent this past week... he is 30 year old young attorney out to make a name for himself..... In a rural Louisiana Parish where there is 73% Caucasians, a young African American attorney has no chance... however he has chose to throw his hat in the ring....
He came out swinging with a 3:30 minute Negative Political Commercial that tears at racial divide..
I'm not sure who his advisers are, but.... they should re-think their approach..
Its disheartening to see a young man ruin his first foray into politics with so much negativity ..
On other matters, we are still receiving a great deal of rain week after week.... not every day... but a few days a week.... everyone is ready for 65 degree weather and sunshine.... I'm ready to plant the pots in the front of the house with tomato plants... ....
Other than that, Life is fairly ok... I did receive my PSA back... whatever happened 11 years ago in San Antonio was a good decision.... my PSA over time has fallen time and time again... last week it
was .8... yep point 8.... not 1.0 not 1.4 not 1.8.. or 2.3 ... now it is .8....
Amazing.... and the old doctor here wanted to jerk the crown jewel out of the body... and the good doctor in San Antonio at the MDAnderson Research Center said we are placing you in our study... Keep the crown jewel for a lil bit longer.
I do have to get back to the gym.... and I will soon..... soon.
The Boss picked up an opponent this past week... he is 30 year old young attorney out to make a name for himself..... In a rural Louisiana Parish where there is 73% Caucasians, a young African American attorney has no chance... however he has chose to throw his hat in the ring....
He came out swinging with a 3:30 minute Negative Political Commercial that tears at racial divide..
I'm not sure who his advisers are, but.... they should re-think their approach..
Its disheartening to see a young man ruin his first foray into politics with so much negativity ..
On other matters, we are still receiving a great deal of rain week after week.... not every day... but a few days a week.... everyone is ready for 65 degree weather and sunshine.... I'm ready to plant the pots in the front of the house with tomato plants... ....
Other than that, Life is fairly ok... I did receive my PSA back... whatever happened 11 years ago in San Antonio was a good decision.... my PSA over time has fallen time and time again... last week it
was .8... yep point 8.... not 1.0 not 1.4 not 1.8.. or 2.3 ... now it is .8....
Amazing.... and the old doctor here wanted to jerk the crown jewel out of the body... and the good doctor in San Antonio at the MDAnderson Research Center said we are placing you in our study... Keep the crown jewel for a lil bit longer.
I do have to get back to the gym.... and I will soon..... soon.
Monday, January 20, 2020
MLK Day in the Lil City by the Red
Its MLK Day here in the Deep Deep South.........
Its a holiday day for everyone.... and I am about to go take some photos of the parade that is happening a few blocks here from the Camp....
More to Come...... Stand By...... one of the Lesbian Sisters will be attending with me and tomorrow I am sure the Courthouse will be a buzzing with what took place.. it always does....
Here are a few photos from today's Parade..... One of them is Ms. Garrett, Ms. Garrett walks the Lil City by the Red each day, from one side to the other... up river and down river....
Wasn't that many folks out that braved the 40 degree temp, but Ms. Garrett did.... Thanks to Ms. Garrett for the Spirit she carries with her and about this Lil City.
Here is .........Shadows on the Bricks..... ......
Its a holiday day for everyone.... and I am about to go take some photos of the parade that is happening a few blocks here from the Camp....
More to Come...... Stand By...... one of the Lesbian Sisters will be attending with me and tomorrow I am sure the Courthouse will be a buzzing with what took place.. it always does....
Here are a few photos from today's Parade..... One of them is Ms. Garrett, Ms. Garrett walks the Lil City by the Red each day, from one side to the other... up river and down river....
Wasn't that many folks out that braved the 40 degree temp, but Ms. Garrett did.... Thanks to Ms. Garrett for the Spirit she carries with her and about this Lil City.
Here is .........Shadows on the Bricks..... ......
Sunday, January 19, 2020
Sunday Afternoon...... It's a Good Day
I awoke early this morning ...around 4am... tossed turned took the cpap off... and dream a lil bit more....
At this time of the year I am preparing to gather the documents for my tax preparation by the cpa.... Sometimes I think I'm doing the majority of the work.. but it is worth it... mine is one of four senior partners in one of the largest firms in this area... they preform a majority of the public audits for cities, towns, and villages around here.
Lackin some social contact with other gay men, I decided to get on Grindr yesterday... wrong move... same old shit... same old people..... same old same old..... I deleted the profile as fast as I had made it. There's no grow in those folks.... which is ok... its just a sex site.. someone to jump in bed with.. but I couldn't make myself approach anyone .. or chat with any one.... I guess the therapy is working to some extent... but horny is horny....craving is a craving... I retreated into a private moment.. enough said.
Today I didn't make it down the street to St. James... one day.. one day... again.
I decided to make a fire in the fireplace... and spend the day in the home office as stated above... play the Traveling Wilburys on the Sonos...and make a shrimp stock from the shrimp Mr. Hickman brought to me the other day.... Let me digress.. at lest one of the benefits is that we do have Gulf Shrimp fresh from the night's catch available in the Lil City by the Red....
Later this afternoon, I am checking the football scores, most folks at the Courthouse play the football boards as it approaches the Super Bowl... I am on two boards this afternoon.. with fairly good numbers...
I will be making a shrimp stew later and having the Lesbians over for supper .. around 530... to eat early.. they both are going to some boot camp work out program early each morning...
My MacBook Pro is now Eight years old, on a secoond key board.. and its slow.. I would like a new Mac... but I think the cost is prohibitive for this year... I just would like to place that money into the house and grounds here... and I want to make some adjustments to the house as well ... refinish two of the 1923 quarter sawn pine floors in the house.. new backsplash in the kitchen etc...2800 dollars goes a long way down here in house and garden spending.
At this time of the year I am preparing to gather the documents for my tax preparation by the cpa.... Sometimes I think I'm doing the majority of the work.. but it is worth it... mine is one of four senior partners in one of the largest firms in this area... they preform a majority of the public audits for cities, towns, and villages around here.
Lackin some social contact with other gay men, I decided to get on Grindr yesterday... wrong move... same old shit... same old people..... same old same old..... I deleted the profile as fast as I had made it. There's no grow in those folks.... which is ok... its just a sex site.. someone to jump in bed with.. but I couldn't make myself approach anyone .. or chat with any one.... I guess the therapy is working to some extent... but horny is horny....craving is a craving... I retreated into a private moment.. enough said.
Today I didn't make it down the street to St. James... one day.. one day... again.
I decided to make a fire in the fireplace... and spend the day in the home office as stated above... play the Traveling Wilburys on the Sonos...and make a shrimp stock from the shrimp Mr. Hickman brought to me the other day.... Let me digress.. at lest one of the benefits is that we do have Gulf Shrimp fresh from the night's catch available in the Lil City by the Red....
Later this afternoon, I am checking the football scores, most folks at the Courthouse play the football boards as it approaches the Super Bowl... I am on two boards this afternoon.. with fairly good numbers...
I will be making a shrimp stew later and having the Lesbians over for supper .. around 530... to eat early.. they both are going to some boot camp work out program early each morning...
My MacBook Pro is now Eight years old, on a secoond key board.. and its slow.. I would like a new Mac... but I think the cost is prohibitive for this year... I just would like to place that money into the house and grounds here... and I want to make some adjustments to the house as well ... refinish two of the 1923 quarter sawn pine floors in the house.. new backsplash in the kitchen etc...2800 dollars goes a long way down here in house and garden spending.
Wednesday, January 15, 2020
Wednesday Night......
Its been a lil' while since I posted..
Today the boss gathered an opponent for the upcoming election in November... this young turk is starting early... young is the optimum word here.. he is 30.....
His first campaign ad was on FB... 3:31 minutes long.... Total Negative.. Totally....
It was sad for me to see this young man, who has had some very bad political advice go so negative right off the bat... worst move he can make.. Totally.
Its going to be a long long year... which makes it better for me..... keeping on one's toes, dotting each i... having a dilligent pace ....makes work a lil better in the sense that you are always aware of the guy looking at you.
I just wish this young turk hadn't started off with a negative campaign ad.
On a perssonal note... life is ok... work is good... porch life is returning to the Lil City by the Red... we hit 74 degrees today.... hopefully we will have a few colder days.. but no freezes..etc..
I was out Saturday night and all the crawfish eaterys were in full swing... parking lots full.... the crawfish boil seasoning was hanging in the still air of the night....
The Japanese Magnolias will be blooming soon.... grass cutting and all the yard men..will be start making thier rounds again....
The interpersonal life is fairly good also..... nothing really to speak off...
A side note ....small city gay populations in Louisiana suffer from not having any gay bars anymore... its all the social apps now.. the bar scene in all of our small cities have been affected by the stingent DWI patrols and the social apps..
a note also for history... when I first came to the Lil City by the Red in 1988 we had 5 gay bars.... No interstate.. No iphones with Grindr.. We now have an interstate passing thru downtown.... iPhones... Grindr... Scruff....and No Gay Bars.....
Today the boss gathered an opponent for the upcoming election in November... this young turk is starting early... young is the optimum word here.. he is 30.....
His first campaign ad was on FB... 3:31 minutes long.... Total Negative.. Totally....
It was sad for me to see this young man, who has had some very bad political advice go so negative right off the bat... worst move he can make.. Totally.
Its going to be a long long year... which makes it better for me..... keeping on one's toes, dotting each i... having a dilligent pace ....makes work a lil better in the sense that you are always aware of the guy looking at you.
I just wish this young turk hadn't started off with a negative campaign ad.
On a perssonal note... life is ok... work is good... porch life is returning to the Lil City by the Red... we hit 74 degrees today.... hopefully we will have a few colder days.. but no freezes..etc..
I was out Saturday night and all the crawfish eaterys were in full swing... parking lots full.... the crawfish boil seasoning was hanging in the still air of the night....
The Japanese Magnolias will be blooming soon.... grass cutting and all the yard men..will be start making thier rounds again....
The interpersonal life is fairly good also..... nothing really to speak off...
A side note ....small city gay populations in Louisiana suffer from not having any gay bars anymore... its all the social apps now.. the bar scene in all of our small cities have been affected by the stingent DWI patrols and the social apps..
a note also for history... when I first came to the Lil City by the Red in 1988 we had 5 gay bars.... No interstate.. No iphones with Grindr.. We now have an interstate passing thru downtown.... iPhones... Grindr... Scruff....and No Gay Bars.....
Sunday, January 05, 2020
Quiet Saturday
For the first time in since early November 2019, I had a quiet, no whole porch full of visitors....
The day was a lil bit windy, hovering around 45 degrees, blustery for our neck of the woods...
C and S are back from their two weeks in Spain.... those sisters do give me support..Glad to have that pair back...
It was another quiet week at the office... but this coming week...the rumor mill will be in full production.
There is a billboard sign in town supporting the Chief of Police ... The new Mayor and his staff are not seasoning politicos ... and have made some errors in judgment when it comes to sentiment of the people .... the Mayor could send this Lil City by the Red.. into a free Fall if he isn't careful.
However, all is well in my Lil Red Brick Street... I had supper with Lisa last night out in the country.. looked at the stars, had a steak and a good ChduPape... came home cpap'ed it into a peaceful night..
Up early ... and started the morning with the weekend edition of the WSJ and coffee
The day was a lil bit windy, hovering around 45 degrees, blustery for our neck of the woods...
C and S are back from their two weeks in Spain.... those sisters do give me support..Glad to have that pair back...
It was another quiet week at the office... but this coming week...the rumor mill will be in full production.
There is a billboard sign in town supporting the Chief of Police ... The new Mayor and his staff are not seasoning politicos ... and have made some errors in judgment when it comes to sentiment of the people .... the Mayor could send this Lil City by the Red.. into a free Fall if he isn't careful.
However, all is well in my Lil Red Brick Street... I had supper with Lisa last night out in the country.. looked at the stars, had a steak and a good ChduPape... came home cpap'ed it into a peaceful night..
Up early ... and started the morning with the weekend edition of the WSJ and coffee
Wednesday, January 01, 2020
Tis ... Tis a New Year....
Tis a New Year and the March toward Election Day is on....
That's another story for another time tho.
Today, I woke up early.... I had a disturbing telephone call last night from an old friend in BR...he alluded that a guy in Alexandria was putting out very bad rumors of my dismissal from my job.. I know of this guy but I couldn't understand or fathom for what reason he was putting this crap out.
I have been honest with all concerned about my trials and tribulations of the past 18 months, upfront about everything...
I have reason to believe this is just some more crap or fall out from people that are Not my Friends.
My circle is very paired down these days...
Today, I had over a few friends and neighbors for the Cabbage and Black eyed peas.... they all took the leftovers home... which is a good sign all enjoyed it....
So, besides the call yesterday... I am happy and will continue to muster up the faith to go forward... in Life... carry myself as a person that helps folks and tries to understand Life..... Period.
That's another story for another time tho.
Today, I woke up early.... I had a disturbing telephone call last night from an old friend in BR...he alluded that a guy in Alexandria was putting out very bad rumors of my dismissal from my job.. I know of this guy but I couldn't understand or fathom for what reason he was putting this crap out.
I have been honest with all concerned about my trials and tribulations of the past 18 months, upfront about everything...
I have reason to believe this is just some more crap or fall out from people that are Not my Friends.
My circle is very paired down these days...
Today, I had over a few friends and neighbors for the Cabbage and Black eyed peas.... they all took the leftovers home... which is a good sign all enjoyed it....
So, besides the call yesterday... I am happy and will continue to muster up the faith to go forward... in Life... carry myself as a person that helps folks and tries to understand Life..... Period.
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